some updates... this week finally back to work... work sucks as usual... n i went for interview at Schering-Plough on thursday... i seriously hope to get it.. but i think i might be disappointed.. sad...

fri was out wif gb and ahgong.. lol.. afternoon was so craving for kfc...! so i msg them wanna go out eat kfc ltr? hahaha... think both of them think i so ridiculous.. haha...
But anyway, still met up wif them.. went to lot 1.. and the three of us finished the fortune meal lehz !!! haha.. i think i was super craving for it that i ate alot.. ops..
went to play arcade wif them.. played the basketball thingy.. kaoz.. ppl is throw till hand tired.. i stand till tired.. cos i too short!! got to tip toe... pengz... after which was ktv session... finally !!!! after dont know how mani mths of not singing... jitao super fun... lol... i stil cant believe that i cant reach the girl's part for shan hu hai... i cant believe it !! haha... si gb stil keep replaying the song to gek mi... zhu tou...
i am so in love wif jay's new songs !!! especially the shou ji lang man... or lang man shou ji.. cant rem.. ha
sang all the way till 2 n they send mi home in a cab.. zzzzz... tired!

sat n sunday was spend wif dear... he came over for lunch on sat cos my mama cooking... my fav soup! after which went over his place... cant go anywhere cos he's on mc.. poor thing... tsk tsk..
we cooked spragetti for dinner... actualli is he cook la.. haha.. cos just right hc call mi.. when i finish talking to him.. he also almost done.. muahaha... =x
n i wan to complain!! why the bed so big... pian pian must squeeze mi into a corner until i no place to slp.... so i was dead tired today... lolz... actualli was intending to go east coast cycle... but i am tired to go anywhere.... so just zzzzzzz the whole day.... lol...
went home early... cos got no money to take cab le... super broke... wanted to ask him go walk walk... but in the end decided better not... cos i think he also broke bcos of his v day gift to mi.... seee.... mi n my big mouth... tsk...

to all contact lens user all there........ boycott Renu solution !!! lolz.....

wee wee told mi he saw on the newspaper that out of 22 people whu got eye infection... 21 of them are using renu....

see see see see see see !!! i knew it !!!!
previously when i am using solocare no such problems de... though there's no scientific proof la... but it must be it !!!!!!!

boycott boycott !!!!!....

I am on mc all the way till monday ! wooohooo... but stil.. i cant go out.. so its equal to nothing...

yesterday.. my dear came over n acc mi to my eye check up... i was told gladly by the doc that my eyes are recovering fast.. but yea.. got to face the fact that my eyesight will be affected.. haiz.. serve mi right for being so lazy.. for taking my eyes for granted..

after which both of us da bao kfc home to eat.. n took a short afternoon nap.. tsk.. could realli feel my eyes getting more in need of rest le.. it gets tired realli easily.. totalli sucks..

he woke up n prepare to go wedding dinner.. while i continued to slack at home.. lol..stayed up waiting for him.. had to take his bag down for him cos he going back camp...

today is slping day again.. funni.. i slept so long n yet i stil feel tired.. dear came over to acc mi after his work... took an afternoon nap n went out for dinner...
got scolded by him.. just bcos i asked if i could join him n jr they all at alley bar... kinda shocked cos he jitao scolded mi so fierce... n he was angry bcos i dont know how to take care of myself.. ok i know he meant good.. so i diam diam liao lo..
went ntuc bought things to munch at home... hee... n his rashes came back again... he veri pek cek... i also dont know wat to do.. faints.. so i just diam diam lo.... lol...
haiz... i am ban from going out this whole week.. i cant believe it !!! faintz... diam diam lo... lol

ok.. i think i am quite bored la.. so i decided to write abt something... just a few weeks back.. one of my frenz broke up wif her bf... n the reason being bcos she cant see any future wif tt guy...
I am sure alot of ppl come across this situation.. I myself have been thru this transition stage... I think alot of girls think its kinda cool to say that when u break up with tt guy.. but honestly.. it is so not...
on the contrary.. i think its damn dumb to say tt.... n its veri unfair... ok.. i think i am referring to myself at times.. lol.. yes.. i do admit sometimes i cant see the future with him.. mayb sometimes i feel that he's not gonna be there for me in the future.. i dont know.. realli mayb its just due to me feeling insecure tts all.. but anyway.. i figure it all out... yes its totalli unfair to the other party... bcos ppl do change as time goes by.. so how do u know for sure wats gonna happen in the future? just bcos at present there are somethings that u cant stand abt the other party and u just put him on death sentence.. who knows mayb as the two of you walk down this long journey.. he turns out to be ur prince charming? crapz..

ok.. i m stil quite bored... well.. was talking to charlene just now... and i was telling her... i realli kinda think lucas spoils mi too much le... things he got for mi are always so expensive... the amount of money he spent on mi is way beyond my imagination.. n u know wat.. it totalli make mi damn guilty... bcos i am not the sort of girl whu enjoys ppl pampering mi.. especially spending a large sum of money on mi.. i feel so guilty.. damn.. cant do anything abt it? so much i wanted to spoil him back.. but well.. i m relatively poor in tt sense.. but i guess thats how it is ba? cos if i have the money.. i will pamper him too.. lol..
someone told mi once i am a typical libra... i always have the tendency to give in to others... n when i asked him wat the hell he meant... lol.. he told mi i give in too much... n he has nv seen anyone as understanding as mi...

see tt as a compliment? i kinda think he's being rude..
I mean whu the heck in the world would want to pick up an argument with ur partner anyhow... of cos i will give in if i feel i have nth to lose... its just taking a step back muh.. wats so difficult about that.. n by doing so.. reduces another quarrel... so everyone's happi at the end of the day lo...
cant understand how some ppl think at times..... it doesnt hurt to give in alittle more at times to make the other person happi.. especially when the person's someone dear to your heart right? =)

ok... time for mi to rest my eyes... heee...

a'right gonna update about whats going on 14th of Feb... I have only one thing to say.. I am really so touched by wat my dear planned.. its the first valentine's day i spent with him n truly it was the best valentine's day for me..

The day started with me having a check up with the eye doctor and i was praying so damn hard that i can be discharge.. bcos i know dear planned n spent alot.. all would go to waste if i cant go home..

n yes.. the doc allow me to go home.. god bless him!! =)

went home to take a rest.. he came over my place in the afternoon... n.. i had the first surprise of the day... he got mi one of my fav flowers.. white roses !!.. a dozen of them wrapped in a pretty lavendar paper with a sweet "i love u" heart cushion pinned at the neck of the bouquet..

n tt silly boi got mi to close my eyes while he put on a necklace for mi... i jumped with joy when i saw tt... its citigems !!! my first citigems from him... just cos i once mentioned that i realli love citigems... n its realli pretty.. tts my second surprise.. so sad i cant give him his present.. but i will finish it up quick after my eyes recover.. =)

after which he tuck mi in bed to have a rest before heading for our dinner.. n he fell aslp too.. lol..

guess where he brought mi to?

The night safari !!! hee.. he booked the gourmet express valentine's day dinner... its a 5 course meal on a tram...it takes u round the park..
(actualli i alreadi knew tt he might take mi on this.. cos i saw it on a newspaper or mag.. but dont ask mi how i know.. i just had this instinct.. shhhhh... he doesnt know ha)
but stil its a veri nice experience bcos its the first time both of us tried it.. definitely something kept in my memory forever..
the day ends with a night show... short n nice !

n its home sweet home.. =) i dont know wat to say.. but i think girls out there would think i am veri xin fu... ya.. i realli am.. ^-^ i know he cares alot for mi cos he keeps asking hows my eyes thru out the night n he wants mi to go home to rest as soon as the show ends..

i know i am a veri careless n stupid girl whu always get myself into shits.. got to buck up Miss Khoo ! n i nearly spoilt his valentine's day if i cant discharge.. I realli can be such a kutu at times.. n i have been falling sick like 4 to 5 times in these 2 mths..

up till now i stil cant believe i have him by my side.. its like too good to be true eh.. thanks dear for everything.. =)

I am a happi ger.. yipee ! photos up as soon as i get them from my dear..

ok.. though i seldom say this to him... but Dear.. i realli love u veri much.. =)

booo... I was hospitalized for the past few days... -_-
actualli its all my fault.. cos i didnt take good care of my eyes...

had some serious eye infection n i had to put eye drops every hour.. even when i am aslp... so i am extremely tired... -_-zzzzz

everyday was just slping there cos i just couldnt do anything.. couldnt open my eyes at all.. when it got alittle better i was dying to finish up the present for dear.. but i wasnt allowed to do bcos i couldnt strain my eyes at all.. tsk tsk..

dear dear came over to acc mi on sat n sun.. i knew he was veri veri tired due to work.. but haha he stil came.. n he bought alot alot alot of magazines for mi.. ended up i got scolded by my mom cos she said i wasted his money.. -_-""" oh.. nigel came over on monday to acc although i told him no need... lol.. caught up with each other n we were discussing abt the fhm girls... hahaha.. *thanks =)

got discharge on tuesday as the doc mentioned that my eyes are recovering fast.. but had to put the drops every 3 hour.. kinda no diff.. sad to say.. i cant wear contact lens anymore... n my vision would be affected due to e scar left behind... haiz...

ytd was valentine's day !! of cos i spend it with him... more to update.. need to rest my eyes.. ^-^

whhheeee....

i m boreeddddd.... -_-"""

my dear asked mi ytd if i wanted to go night safari? how cool is tt.. lol.. night safari wor... a place which i have onli visited once... n its like in primary sch.. heee..

well well... i must find new hobbies to keep myself entertained.. if not i will realli miss him alot...

okok.. i am toking nonsense.. but its true ma.. if u got nth to do.. u would think abt stuffs.. n i just happen to always think abt him.. so ta da !..

blahz.. i am rambling stupid things again...
beng they all went zouk tonight... mambo!!!
i am so guai k.. i did not go... i wanna slp.... i need more time to finish it !! arrrghhh.... so little time....

ok... time to retreat into bed.. yea... zzzzz

I have been having serious panda eyes due to lack of slp.... for a couple of weeks or even mths !!!! All thanks to my clever idea...

N i tot it was so easy at first... but its so not.. took mi 4 mths to do it... ya.. i admit i did slack alittle in the 4 mths.. but still.. i must admit its not an easy feat for me...

tonight.. i decided to take a break.. n rest my eyes.. although the thing is not completed.. n i am like a gan chiong spider le... but i wanna zzzz...

went shopping wif charlene today.. lol.. both of us spent a great deal of time at the bra shop... lol.. getting fanatic over a particular bra.. ha! so shitter...

n we met up wif ahgong, gb and kl.. took a short walk around before going home...

I am tired !!!!

Its been awhile since i last updated.. shall do a short update on my cny..

1st day of cny
went to my 2nd aunt place... been a long time since i saw ling... lol.. chatted with her most of the time there.. after which was to my gugu's hse.. did not go due to some stuffs..
went over to lucas' place bai nian.. kind of scary cos his place was crowded with alot of ppl..
played sparklers with him n his cousins..
nothin much too..

2nd day of cny
accompanied him the whole day.. after which we went over to beng's place for steamboat .. lost alot at his place.. close to 70.. tsk..
went off early...

3rd day of cny
accompanied him the whole day too.. supposed to go jason's hse.. but eh.. did not go in the end.. lol.. lazy to explain..
caught the movie "fearless".. not a bad show...

4th day of cny
boring day... at work...
could feel i was getting sick... slept almost the whole day at work..

5th day of cny
went to the doc n got the day off...
n rested at home..
spent the whole day watching tv...

6th day of cny
Its a friday !!! yeay...
met up wif ahgong n gb at jp for dinner...
we went to watch Fun with Dick & Jane.. ha.. gb treated mi..
funni show !! all should go catch it.. lol..

7th day of cny
went to gb's place for steamboat...
met up wif char at bp interchange first.. met up wif gb, ahgong, jason n cp at jp..
supposed to go dbl o wif beng n all but sorriez ppl.. i really wasnt in a good mood..
played with ahgong's ps2.. n some mj session.. shiiter i lost again..
this year isnt a good year to gamble.. lol...

8th day of cny
yap.. today.. i decided to stay at home..
cos i think i am not in the right mood...
i need some time alone.. n i dont feel like seeing anyone.. =)
tata.. thats all.. cny is over soon..

I have been an ugly girl for the whole week.. wore specs everyday.. -_-

Starting to look for new jobs.. anyone wanna intro mi some?? lol.. kinda lazy to find.. but seeing that staying with this company would bring more harm to my future.. i buck myself up.. been searching thru the papers everyday.. n trust mi.. chemical engineers jobs are rare finds!

everyday at the company was chit chatting with chiew ling n walking rounds n rounds in the clean room cos there's simply nth for us to do ! talking to tt girl really makes mi think abt wat i want in my life..

Last fri acc him to chinatown to get new year decoration for his place.. on the way.. i finally told him how i felt abt our r/s.. n like i guessed it.. he doesnt even know tt he's been likdat.. I guess he must be pretty hurt as i mentioned that i really felt like giving at a point of time.. but i told him i stil cant bear to let go.. i hope we can work out the differences tog.. all was well.. =)

Saturday was spent at jerm's hse... union's reunion dinner... steamboat my fav ! hehe.. but its way too much ppl.. everyone's like a hungry ghost.. kind of put mi off.. so in the end mi spenc wee and rh ended up having our "miniature steamboat" ha!
yup, n tt night... was a terrible n messy affair.. jr got drunk.. n i guess its the first time he ever vomitted in his slp.. in the end the guys had to drag him into the toilet n bath him.. lol.. while mi lingzi n peisun cleared up the vomit n mucus mess he left behind... ewwwkks..

n Chinese new year's around the corner !! i really cant wait.. i dont know why... mayb cos its lotsa days of holiday for all of us.. ! =)

eye infection.... i learnt my lesson... gonna take good care of my eyes in the future...

cant even open my eyes on sunday night that i went to hospital for check up... turns out its serious infection of my upper eye lid... thank god my eye ball was not affected by the infection..

slept thru monday.. thankfully it starts to turn better.. i can finally see.. lol.. but with some blur vision.. so gonna turn into bed soon ! zzzz

ji dan !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid idiotic brainless freak !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arrrrghhhhh..........

seriously i really feel like killing someone... really feel like !!!!!!!!!
arrrrgghhhh........

-bang wall-
-bang wall-
-bang wall-

i wan to vent my frustrations !!!!!!!!!!!!! i can feel all of them bottling inside me.... just a small thing can ignite the blow le...

JI DAN !!!!!!!!!!!! WANG BA DAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PUI !

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xmas is over.... i had the best xmas this year..

sat morning i was over at charlene's hse for some "vitamin D sessions" lol.. yup.. its tanning.. both of us talk till 12 plus n we went to wash up.. Acc her to TPY central and waited for tt zhu tou.. lol.. stil can late !

went home n took a rest.. supposed to meet up wif poly classmates.. but i decided to skip it.. cos i was totally broke.. cant afford to eat at marche.. haiz.. actualli i realli realli realli do miss all of them man..

prepare to meet up wif my dear.. on the way there.. was msg-ing sz to see if i could meet up wif them even for a short while.. i dont know why.. i just suddenly miss all my frens.. haiz.. but sadly i did not meet up wif them cos we skipped the town area, its too crowded.. =( so we went to marina instead.. n went sakae for dinner.. all this while, my dear was carrying the present he got for mi.. jidan ! made mi full of curiosity.. cos the box is so big n heavy.. well well.. he said he got mi a big rock melon inside.. lol.. watched the chronicles of narnia.. its a superb show ! were alreadi veri late cos the show finised at 11 plus.. n we definitely didnt wan to count down to xmas in the cab.. so rushed down to jerm's hse..

who knows.. wee called n asked us to get some things.. seriously i dont mind helping u guys get things.. but i was quite pissed off when u all still can request for the diff flavours of lolipop?! Dear n mi was like "Hur!" n when i cant find them, i called back.. i could still hear dont know whu saying tt dont care must find the flavour...
I admit i was pek cek.. tt i scolded cheewee.. sorrie ar.. but know why.. cos i was choosing the flavour, the whole queue was jammed up by mi lo... dotz.. totally speechless by this man..

anyway, both of us decided not to let this thing spoil our mood.. so we all hurried up n went over jerm's place..
a night of chit chatting, celebrating of wee's bday, bbq-ing, mj-ing and of cos not to mention.. drinking till high n seh.. ha..
i was a good girl ! i drank onli abit cos i wasnt feeling well.. but that also means a price to pay.. cos in the wee hours of the morning.. the only ones awake was mi, dear n jr.. both of them were so frickin determined to get drunk..

so just when they started toking nonsense.. rh barged into the kitchen n vomitted.. so imagine i had to take care of 3 guys !! damn tiring man.. but its a super funni sight ! haha.. cos 3 of them were hugging tog saying i love u i love u.. haha..
no words can describe the situation tt night.. imagine.. jr n dear woke everyone up.. n all started laughing at them.. i managed to get dear to vomit everything out.. n get him to slp..
as for jr.. hahaaaa... totally cracked us up !!! voted the comedian for the year le la... bth him !!!

oh.. anyway.. e present from my dear really really put mi into tears.. he wanted mi to open it up in front of all of them.. i was veri pressurized.. took a peek inside.. n oh my ! i saw the levis black spag top n skirt !! i was veri veri delighted.. didnt know that he would take notice of wat i wanted.. alreadi melted le.. n there was another gift wrapped up...
guess wat is it? e moment i saw it.. i burst into tears n hug him tight.. veri drama hur.. but ya.. i was moved to tears.. he brought mi the M:robe..

haiz... i really feel so pampered by him... he must have spend a bomb.. n now i feel so so so guilty.. booooo... next time when i go out shopping wif him.. i shall keep all the comments to myself.. hee..

I love u my dear !!
Merry Xmas my frenz !

xmas is two days away.. .. i am so stressed...
i know my dearie spent quite a lot for my present.. n mi? i did not get him anything.. cos i m totally broke.. hiaz..

i feel so bad..

i feel so bad..

but i still cant wait for tml to come.. going to take a trip down to orchard n take photos ! yipee.. =) of cos.. wif him.. whu else hur..

xmas is just around the corner !! I'm so sad.. i am totally broke.. i cant get my frens presents.. i cant get stuffs for him.. n with the xmas sales going round.. its the best time to go on a shopping spree.. why oh why must i be broke now.. of all times.??!!

I have been going shopping n shopping.. n planning for my new year's clothes.. last weekend was spent rotting at breko with dar, rh and wee.. some heart to heart talk.. it seems that i am really back to my happi state.. nothing seems to be able to dampen my spirit.. i learnt to accept things that are beyond my control.. i learnt to take things easy and cherish the ppl around me..

spent my sat with dar.. he said i am the girl that he trusts most.. though i was teasing him all the way.. but i swear to god.. i nearly melted.. to be trusted by someone u love is a great feeling.. =)

sunday was at sentosa with jr, beng and elaine.. really had fun with them.. haha.. after wards was dinner at orchard.. n all went kuang shopping last minute at the temporary stalls outside cine.. i nearly fainted ar.. almost everyone bought sth..

monday was another shopping trip with my dar.. he came all the way to pick mi up after work wor ! went to sushi tei for dinner.. its damn yummilicious.. haha..
shopping time.... ar.. i am so gonna buy that skirt from kai.. i wan bags.. shoess... birkenstock !!! n bikinis...
he bought mi a charm bracelet..... thank you my dear... =)
i feel so pampered by him....

ytd was a havoc night man..

lol... went to dbl o to celebrate cindy's 21st birthday.. Before that, i met up wif dear ! yeay.. finally.. i hug him the moment i saw him.. cos i miss him too much.. lol.. my dear was commenting on his look tt day.. he told mi he feel very gay... hahaha !!! bth him.. acc him go eat sushi even though i was veri veri full le.. hee..

met up wif elaine, wee, hc and charlene after my dear left for camp.. we went shopping.. mi n elaine can just disappear into a shop.. lol.. think they bth us.. haha.. went into levis shop n i saw so mani things i like !!! omg..

I like the purple jacket.. its super duper nice.. i saw the skirt.. n i like it alot alot !!... I saw the black spagg... n i love it !!!.. arrrr.. i want i want i want... i want the princess cut lady style jeans...
n at dbl o.. i saw a girl wearing the second batch of the lady jeans.. its so nice !!!!!!! i wan i wan i wan i wan !!!!!!!!! droolz...

ok.. anyway.. we shopped from far east all the way to ps.. looking for cindy's present.. n we finally found it at citigems.. a veri veri nice necklace hehe.. i wan citigems !!!! the jewellery are all veri nice !!!! lolx..

meet up wif rh, cindy, jr, beng for dinner.. n we went over.. towards the end.. most of us was seh le.. lol.. i actualli vomitted again..
so they bought mi out.. n i saw cindy alreadi outside.. lol.. so both of us jus sat there n rest.. so sorry man.. let all the ppl fuss over mi.. part time dont let mi rest.. keep asking mi stand up.. but i no energy at all.. so resulting in a very wobbly mi.. must be a funni sight ! haha..

lol.. tt stupid jr.. stil can come over pat my head say he promise next time dont give mi drink le.. I was so puzzled by this statement.. so i think he also veri seh liaoz.. haha.. n thru out.. he keep telling mi dont let him drink.. if not he sure ko.. so funni!
then he keep saying.. we all lack of 1 person.. if the person come, none of this will happen.. lol.. he keep saying why my dear dear nv come.. gao siao!

elaine n her fren send mi home.. so i rest on the cab.. but the moment i reach home i am so awake le.. haha.. but i think i made my dear angry.. cos i promise him i wont drink much.. in the end.. haiz..

anyway.. happy early birthday cindy ! hehe..

eeeewww..

i realise i have been having some boring life lately.. its been working non-stop.. n suddenly all the managers are treating mi like god.. faintz.. they wan mi to help them explain to HSA.. nuts.. but too bad.. i think i am gonna jump to a better company soon.. hee..

n my mom's recently in a very horrible mood.. most of the time she doesnt wan to acknowledge mi when i ask her how is she.. till today i finally know wats troubling her.. i have no idea how to comment.. but i certainly felt wat my brother did was super wrong n hurful to her..

haiz.. i miss my dear alot... been a week since i saw him.. booz

why must he be on tt stupid course.. bboooo...
ytd he asked if i feel neglected.. lol.. i told him.. "Ya.. of cos la.. ben dan.. if i dont feel a thing.. means i dont care abt u le.."
But i also told him i understand his situation so i dont demand alot of his attention..

But....

I stil hope to see him soon.. lolx..

booo...

k.. i am just bored.. time for zzz..

boring saturday afternoon..gonna bring my mom out to eat ltr.. was kinda disappointed when my bro just went out even when i told him so..

Met up with him ytd.. though just a short meet up.. i was still happy that he made the effort despite him being so tired from his course.. i know i keep changing my views on us.. I am just emotional unstable.. But over the weeks, i kept thinking.. n right now.. i know wat i wan..

ps: yummy just wanna say something.. a blog is for mi to write out all my feelings n tots at tt point of time.. it doesnt mean that i will act upon them.. n it doesnt shows all thats running through my head.. bcos thats alot of things that i cant say or i wont say out.. i just need a space for mi to vent my frustrations.. i believe its always better to jot ur tots down be it good or bad.. mature or childish.. its just a way i de-stress myself.. But thanks alot for reminding mi that i have to fight for gd things.. i totally agree with u.. =)

so why am i at home now?? lol..

i am damn tired out.. supposed to go to work today.. but i slept barely an hour.. so i decided to apply for urgent leave !! n continue pigging all the way till 1 plus.. =x

ytd was out with rh, wee, beng, jr, hanz, ql, elaine, cindy, lz, az, wl, wz and qy.. went to zouk to celebrate wx's birthday plus the return of jr ! lol.. definitely a night to rem.. first time i saw jr so heated up till he wanna whack someone..

Took us quite some effort to calm jr down n drag him back.. i admit i was veri scared during the whole incident.. i was veri shocked at jr's reaction but deep inside i felt a warmth that he cared so much for us.. i know he's stil veri worked up when he went back.. so i did try to talk to him n calm him down..

Curse the two fucking guys !!!! idiots..

n then beng was seh ytd.. i have no comments on tt.. but its so funni to see him walk in a zig zag manner ! lolz..

by the time i reached home was alreadi 4 plus 5.. i was super duper shag out.. resulting in the urgent leave today ! haha..

But watever happened ytd really set mi into thinking.. i cant say out how i feel cos i promise i wont mention it.. Just that life is so full of unexpected things.. n mayb as i grow up.. such things are getting more common.. so i kinda feel neutral abt it.. but i wonder if i can take it when it happens to mi..

recently i have been facing with some the down points in life.. i know some of my frens are too.. i try my best to help them n be there for them.. but i have to admit some of their negativity is really affecting mi alreadi.. i am trying to handle one problem at a time.. yup..

Everything seems to be normal now.. Yup, in the end, i stil cant let go..

But i feel the distance there.. we are like strangers.. n here i am wondering if it is that i am too sensitive..

Its been close to a week since i saw him.. I admit i miss him alot alot.. but yet i dare not voice it out..

He's been really very busy with his work n course.. I know everyday he's tired out.. I did not complain cos its not something that both of us can control.. I myself face with a lot of stress in my work too.

I dont wan to add on to the problems cos we have yet to even sit down n talk about the recent events..

Sometimes.. Jus sometimes.. i really feel he doesnt give a shit anymore.. I was so sad when i called him ytd bcos i was feeling veri giddy on the bus, but he just "cut" mi off even before i can mention anything.. I know i cant blame him.. so i decided not to say anything..

Indeed, i felt a little bit neglected.. But nvm ! I think i should use this period for some soul searching.. Self cultivation ! Hee..